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Solf J Kimblee ([personal profile] explosivecombat) wrote2014-05-13 09:23 am

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The standard example of existential anguish is said to be standing on the edge of a cliff or other high place; there inevitably comes a moment in most self-aware individuals where they experience the realization that not only do they fear falling to their death, but there's nothing stopping them from throwing themselves off. I've always found it strange that a moment of experiencing true freedom like that would be considered distressing rather than a relief; knowing that there's nothing holding me back - that I am in full control of my own choices, whether it's to stand perfectly still or throw myself off - and there is nothing pre-written into whatever it is that I am that will dictate what I do either way is something I've always found calming.

It begs the question, however - do we choose our fears, and more importantly, do we choose how we respond to them?

If nothing is predetermined and everything about our lives comes down to choice, it makes sense to me that our fears also have to come down to choice, whether consciously or not. The part I'm not entirely sure of is the response.

For example, if one is attacked by some sort of animal, it makes sense that one would fear that animal. However, the response to animal attacks tend to vary - some will try to minimize their contact with that sort of animal as much as they can, while others will immerse themselves in it and attempt to desensitize themselves. Is there a particular thing that predetermines what choice a person is going to make?

I'm curious about your thoughts on it; you don't have to detail what fears you have and how you handle them, though if you would like to that might be helpful. I'm more interested in whether you think this sort of thing comes down to ingrained personality - something more inherent, I suppose - or personal choice, and whether such a thing can be changed.

Answer me anonymously if you wish; as always, your response is of more interest to me than your identity, and quite frankly I'm not in the mood to judge either way.

(As for the existential anguish, I've found over the years that I get the greatest satisfaction from neither the thought of staying put, nor the thought of throwing myself off - I've always enjoyed the notion that if I stand on the edge long enough, perhaps someone will act on their compulsion to put their hands against my back and shove.)
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[personal profile] sadisticwarfare 2014-05-14 10:42 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't. I'm curious to hear what others have had to say. I doubt I'll be getting much work done at this rate anyway.
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[personal profile] sadisticwarfare 2014-05-14 10:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, I've learned I shouldn't check the device while I'm working on the off chance that you've posted something thought-provoking.

[...Hang on, that isn't supposed to sound like he's blaming you for it.]

I have no problems with that, of course; the fault is entirely my own for letting myself get distracted.

Something about your topic today isn't sitting right with me, though I can't pinpoint what it is.
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[personal profile] sadisticwarfare 2014-05-15 06:09 am (UTC)(link)
It certainly is. Usually only Alekhine can accomplish that.

I'm not entirely sure. I'm bothered by the idea that we choose our fears, even on a subconscious level. I suppose it's the fact that there's nothing that can be done about it, if that makes sense? Yes, you could expose yourself repeatedly to the thing you fear (assuming it is something you can expose yourself to in the first place), but that doesn't necessarily mean that you can overcome that fear. It's not the sort of thing I've ever bothered to think about before.
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[personal profile] sadisticwarfare 2014-05-15 06:18 am (UTC)(link)
[That's... either really creepy or really flattering, Kimblee. He's leaning more towards "flattering" since he's been in almost constant contact with you for three years.]

That's very true. I don't like admitting that there's nothing I can do in any given situation; there should always be another way out if you look hard enough. Again, I hadn't thought about it like that but yes, you're right.
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[personal profile] sadisticwarfare 2014-05-15 06:23 am (UTC)(link)
Exactly.

It's good to know we're in agreement, then.

Have you received any particularly amusing responses?
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[personal profile] sadisticwarfare 2014-05-15 06:29 am (UTC)(link)
I wasn't aware that was possible.

Homunculi? Which ones? What did they have to say?
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[personal profile] sadisticwarfare 2014-05-15 06:39 am (UTC)(link)
[You're welcome! c: ]

I've never met Lust. I know nothing about the one from my world. Did you get any information about her out of Envy?
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[personal profile] sadisticwarfare 2014-05-15 06:43 am (UTC)(link)
I'm sure one of us will run into her eventually. I wonder if she'll be anything like the Lust from your world.
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[personal profile] sadisticwarfare 2014-05-15 06:50 am (UTC)(link)
It's a shame it wasn't the one who was here before, she was amusing.

Ah, is he? I doubt it'll be long before he returns home.
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[personal profile] sadisticwarfare 2014-05-15 06:58 am (UTC)(link)
I would have liked to have met more of them. They're certainly interesting, if nothing else.

As long as it isn't the version of Fullmetal I knew.
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[personal profile] sadisticwarfare 2014-05-15 07:05 am (UTC)(link)
He's certainly annoying, though if he comes from a point in time where he remember Liore he most likely won't be pleased to see me. He attempted to stop me, but it would have taken much more than a child to prevent me from ordering the invasion.
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[personal profile] sadisticwarfare 2014-05-15 07:07 am (UTC)(link)
What? Of course I didn't shoot him.

[...]

Though I can't say that's really a baseless assumption, considering the fact that I attempted to pull a gun on him less than twenty-four hours earlier.

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