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explosivecombat) wrote2012-10-04 12:30 am
explosivecombat) wrote2012-10-04 12:30 am
Entry tags:
- !ic,
- *text,
- @crow hogan,
- @dr kato (hopefully not in a dress),
- @karkat vantas' impressive profanity,
- @kayneth archibald e-rank luck,
- @king logan's ttly awesome people skills,
- @lust,
- @rin okumura,
- @utena tenjou,
- being you guys is suffering,
- come at me bro,
- god is dead and my tl;dr has killed him,
- just thought he'd ask,
- my tiny violin tho,
- no sense of self-preservation,
- professor of fauxlosophy,
- texting into the void,
- why we can't have nice things
018. [Text, and one other thing.]
[TEXT]
Due to various circumstances in my world of origin, for quite a while, time was immeasurable for me. It came to lack meaning. Weeks bled into months, months into years. In some ways, this world seems like that for many of us; there's a lack of structure, and the list of things that one can do with themselves before they settle into some sort of day-to-day routine is incredibly short. These creatures become a part of our daily lives; this world becomes a part of our daily lives. And before we know it, we've spent weeks here. Months. Years.
That blank spot in my life lasted for seven years, I believe. Yet with nothing else to focus on, I discovered more about myself in those seven years than I did over the course of most of the rest of my life. Spending that long in the dark - whether it's physical or otherwise - tends to teach one a lot, I believe, even if it's just where your limits lie.
You'll have to forgive me for the needless introspection; if you're humoring me by continuing to read, either you have more patience than most at half-midnight, or this is one of those messages on the feed that greets you first thing in the morning. But apparently time does have meaning to most people in this place - in which case...
Tell me how long you've been here, if you choose, and what you've come to discover about yourself in that time.
I suppose it's worth saying that personally, I've been here for a year, as of half an hour ago.
For me, it's been another year where time has next to no meaning, despite the fact that I have an easy way to keep track of it; another year with no direction, though I wouldn't say it's been spent in the dark. Whether I like what I've discovered about myself or not within that year has yet to be seen; however, I find myself content with the way things are.
While I know that I have no choice in the matter, I think I could tolerate another year.
[PRIVATE TEXT TO KATO]
I have a favor to ask of you.
Due to various circumstances in my world of origin, for quite a while, time was immeasurable for me. It came to lack meaning. Weeks bled into months, months into years. In some ways, this world seems like that for many of us; there's a lack of structure, and the list of things that one can do with themselves before they settle into some sort of day-to-day routine is incredibly short. These creatures become a part of our daily lives; this world becomes a part of our daily lives. And before we know it, we've spent weeks here. Months. Years.
That blank spot in my life lasted for seven years, I believe. Yet with nothing else to focus on, I discovered more about myself in those seven years than I did over the course of most of the rest of my life. Spending that long in the dark - whether it's physical or otherwise - tends to teach one a lot, I believe, even if it's just where your limits lie.
You'll have to forgive me for the needless introspection; if you're humoring me by continuing to read, either you have more patience than most at half-midnight, or this is one of those messages on the feed that greets you first thing in the morning. But apparently time does have meaning to most people in this place - in which case...
Tell me how long you've been here, if you choose, and what you've come to discover about yourself in that time.
I suppose it's worth saying that personally, I've been here for a year, as of half an hour ago.
For me, it's been another year where time has next to no meaning, despite the fact that I have an easy way to keep track of it; another year with no direction, though I wouldn't say it's been spent in the dark. Whether I like what I've discovered about myself or not within that year has yet to be seen; however, I find myself content with the way things are.
While I know that I have no choice in the matter, I think I could tolerate another year.
[PRIVATE TEXT TO KATO]
I have a favor to ask of you.
[text]
[text]
I don't think I prefer this place over my own country, per se, but at the same time, I find myself rather content, actually.
[text]
[From the sounds of it, it seems like this place is treating him a lot better than his old home. But, well, she doesn't know enough to say for sure]
[text]
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[text]
No one.
[text]
[Even if she knows that there are truly lonely people in the world, she just can't accept that. She doesn't know the guy, but even so, the alternative is just too sad to consider... and it reminds her a little too much of her own situation]
[text]
My situation is a bit unusual in regards to how I'm perceived by the rest of society; let's just say that my work is such that I accepted long ago that I would die alone, and no one would know - and even if they knew, then no one would care. I'm told that's horribly depressing; I've never found it to be such.
I'm content here, however; I've made a few friends, and I'm currently seeing someone who cares about me a great deal. It's nice, really.
[He pauses for a moment before sending it, after having tacked on that last part. That's the sort of thing people want to hear, isn't it...?]
Re: [text]
It sounds better than your old life, at least - I can't think of anyone else who could have survived like that. But, what about everyone else you've talked to? Do they want to go home, or do they like it better here in Johto?
[After all, he doesn't seem to want to talk about himself, so...]
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