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explosivecombat) wrote2015-04-15 05:09 pm
explosivecombat) wrote2015-04-15 05:09 pm
Entry tags:
- !ic,
- *text,
- admittedly less than fabulous,
- being you guys is suffering,
- but is everyone mad about genocide,
- god is dead and my tl;dr has killed him,
- good ideas are clearly relative concepts,
- hell are you even,
- i used to be hardcore,
- just thought he'd ask,
- kimblee no,
- like a brick to the face,
- my social skills are flawless,
- my tiny violin tho,
- shut up feelings are hard,
- slacking off like hell,
- surprisingly not plotting anyone's death,
- texting into the void,
- that may have been a bit insensitive,
- that wasn't morbid at all,
- this is gonna suck,
- this is really stupid,
- why we can't have nice things
042. [Text, and one other thing.]
[TEXT]
I've noticed that when people are asked the question of whether they would change any major events in their past, a prevalent answer seems to be "No, because everything that's happened to me and everything I've chosen to do have made me who I am today." Sometimes I find that position unbearably arrogant; who's to say that the person you could have been – as terrifying though that notion seems to be for most – wouldn't be an improvement on you are now?
Not all changes are for the better, but there's no reason to assume they'll be for the worse, either.
I hold to a general principle of not regretting anything I've done; that hasn't changed, even now. Just the same, that doesn't mean that sometimes I don't wonder what would have happened if I've chosen to do something different at critical junctures of my life, regardless of how pointless that practice actually is in reality.
The idea of seeking solidarity in such notions is also pointless, but I suppose today is good for indulging in things like that. If I have any questions to pose to the rest of you today – and I admit I didn't start this with that sort of thing in mind for once – I suppose what I want to know is whether you would change anything or not. What it is doesn't matter; I just want to know whether such doubts have crossed your mind before, whether you find it plausible or not.
At the very least those feathers from on high are good for one thing, and that's ensuring that such insipid thoughts aren't keeping me up at night; I've been sleeping surprisingly well since picking one up.
[PRIVATE MESSAGE – ARCHER]
I imagine it would be a good idea for me to let you know that I haven't simply vanished into the aether.
I'm feeling reclusive tonight; do let Isaac know I won't be around.
I've noticed that when people are asked the question of whether they would change any major events in their past, a prevalent answer seems to be "No, because everything that's happened to me and everything I've chosen to do have made me who I am today." Sometimes I find that position unbearably arrogant; who's to say that the person you could have been – as terrifying though that notion seems to be for most – wouldn't be an improvement on you are now?
Not all changes are for the better, but there's no reason to assume they'll be for the worse, either.
I hold to a general principle of not regretting anything I've done; that hasn't changed, even now. Just the same, that doesn't mean that sometimes I don't wonder what would have happened if I've chosen to do something different at critical junctures of my life, regardless of how pointless that practice actually is in reality.
The idea of seeking solidarity in such notions is also pointless, but I suppose today is good for indulging in things like that. If I have any questions to pose to the rest of you today – and I admit I didn't start this with that sort of thing in mind for once – I suppose what I want to know is whether you would change anything or not. What it is doesn't matter; I just want to know whether such doubts have crossed your mind before, whether you find it plausible or not.
At the very least those feathers from on high are good for one thing, and that's ensuring that such insipid thoughts aren't keeping me up at night; I've been sleeping surprisingly well since picking one up.
[PRIVATE MESSAGE – ARCHER]
I imagine it would be a good idea for me to let you know that I haven't simply vanished into the aether.
I'm feeling reclusive tonight; do let Isaac know I won't be around.
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I panicked at the wrong moment, I'd change that.
[And a lot of other stuff too if she really starts going about events she'd like to change! But well, they are supposed to go with no regrets and if she's trying to focus on just one thing about events in her own life here, that she'd like to change to something that she wouldn't regret from that moment... Wrong moment is such a huge understatement there.]
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That does sound unfortunate...I'm assuming it was some sort of combat situation?
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