042. [Text, and one other thing.]

[explosivecombat]

[TEXT]

I've noticed that when people are asked the question of whether they would change any major events in their past, a prevalent answer seems to be "No, because everything that's happened to me and everything I've chosen to do have made me who I am today." Sometimes I find that position unbearably arrogant; who's to say that the person you could have been – as terrifying though that notion seems to be for most – wouldn't be an improvement on you are now?

Not all changes are for the better, but there's no reason to assume they'll be for the worse, either.

I hold to a general principle of not regretting anything I've done; that hasn't changed, even now. Just the same, that doesn't mean that sometimes I don't wonder what would have happened if I've chosen to do something different at critical junctures of my life, regardless of how pointless that practice actually is in reality.

The idea of seeking solidarity in such notions is also pointless, but I suppose today is good for indulging in things like that. If I have any questions to pose to the rest of you today – and I admit I didn't start this with that sort of thing in mind for once – I suppose what I want to know is whether you would change anything or not. What it is doesn't matter; I just want to know whether such doubts have crossed your mind before, whether you find it plausible or not.

At the very least those feathers from on high are good for one thing, and that's ensuring that such insipid thoughts aren't keeping me up at night; I've been sleeping surprisingly well since picking one up.


[PRIVATE MESSAGE – ARCHER]

I imagine it would be a good idea for me to let you know that I haven't simply vanished into the aether.

I'm feeling reclusive tonight; do let Isaac know I won't be around.

Comments

[adai]

Yes. I thought you'd be getting people discussing their own experiences and not asking about yours.

[...is that weird??]

[explosivecombat]

[...This is the kind of "so quaint he's gonna die" usually reserved for tiny British people, in his experience. Are you even real.]

Well, I do appreciate the gesture, especially considering that we've never met.

There isn't anything to be concerned about, however. Things were a bit difficult around this time of year back where I'm from, surely, but it all worked out in the end, and I wouldn't change anything that happened.

[adai]

[Well, he's certainly tiny... And of course he's real, don't be rude!!]

I'm glad to hear that it all worked out for you. It must have been something big if it prompted you to post something like this.

[.............]

Ah, not that I'm trying to get you to talk about it or anything! I didn't mean for it to sound like that.

[explosivecombat]

No, I understand.

I was involved in a war back home; it wasn't my first, but the stakes were rather high. Not everything I did to further my cause was ideal.

[adai]

Oh. I kind of know how that goes.

[Though he suspects this isn't just "someone on my side actually died instead of the usual slaughtering of all the enemies we do" so uh...]

But everything turned out alright, so at least there's that.

[explosivecombat]

Involved in some sort of conflict yourself, then?

[adai]

Yes, that's right. We're in the middle of fighting to reclaim the surface from the beastmen.

[...that's uh... not a joke... he still looks super serious about it.]

[explosivecombat]

[...In fairness, back home Kimblee just killed a wad of sentient living shadows after witnessing somebody literally eating God. If we're going to discuss weird things, at least he's a good person to do it with.]

I see... Is it going well for you?

[adai]

[This response takes a little longer and Rossiu isn't looking at the 'Gear when he finally replies.]

...We won a very important battle and took control of a giant gunman that serves as a walking fortress and base of operations. Ultimately, it's a very promising victory, but the cost was great. We lost our leader.

[He's trying to make it sound as impersonal as possible; he wasn't as badly effected as some people, but everyone felt that loss.]

[explosivecombat]

[Kimblee does recognize that sort of reaction; it'd be difficult not to.]

I understand. You have my condolences, then.

[adai]

...Things are difficult now, but we're not going to give up.

[He almost adds "we can't" but hesitates. There are plenty of reasons why they can't, but ultimately he wants to keep fighting. He wouldn't have learned how to pilot a gunman if he didn't want to help, after all.]

Sorry, I didn't mean to get sidetracked. Thank you though; I'm sure everything will turn out alright.

[explosivecombat]

There's nothing to apologize for. I don't mind the discussion; I like hearing about other people's lives and experiences, actually. I post questions to the network fairly often as a result - it's interesting to hear what people have to say about themselves.

[adai]

Do you? That sounds really interesting. I really like hearing about other peoples' worlds; they're all so different from mine. If it's alright, I'll keep an eye out for your posts in the future.

[He actually looks kind of pleased, though the expression is subdued.]

[explosivecombat]

I would like hearing about yours sometime as well, if you wouldn't mind discussing it.

I'm from one of those worlds that's vastly different from this one, and likewise from most of the worlds that others here came from; it sounds as though you're in a similar situation.

[adai]

Yes, I am. Where I'm from only the beastmen are allowed to live on the surface. They're... half-beast, half-man, though I don't really know much about them. There are a lot of underground cities and towns that humans live in, though I'm really only familiar with Adai, the town I'm from. Apparently most of the other towns are more technologically advanced than Adai - our culture is very different from the others, though I don't know why.

[...that's not really important though.]

We're currently fighting to reclaim the surface so humans can live there, but there isn't much on the surface for the most part. A lot of it is desert or grassland, but there's not much there otherwise. The gunmen are mobile machines that the beastmen use to kill any humans that they find on the surface, but we've been able to take over and use some of the gunmen against them.

...So it's nothing like this world and I haven't met anyone who's from a world similar to it.