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[explosivecombat]

[TEXT; LOCKED TO doitrockapella]

The offer for conversation is always open, should you desire to take me up on it; I can't guarantee that I'll respond immediately, nor will it necessarily be the response you want, but I'll always respond in some way.

In the name of enlightened discourse.

Comments

[doitrockapella]

I'm trying to figure something out about you, and you're making it difficult, as usual.

...

It's not hard to spot the ways he's left his impression on the things you do. It's much rarer and harder to see if I'm ever doing the same. And that's one of the ways you measure importance, isn't it? The mark you leave behind?

[explosivecombat]

I'm not intentionally making it difficult, you know; I'm just not certain what you want.

I don't know what to tell you with regards to this; for what it's worth, he seems to have similar problems telling what he's accomplishing and what he isn't - he often says that I don't seem to take in anything he says, and it often gets incredibly stupid, conversation-wise, until we work out between us exactly what isn't being communicated.

[doitrockapella]

If I could say for certain what I wanted, I'd tell you and make the whole thing that much simpler.

Maybe it's just that I haven't quite shaken a tendency to look for orthodox staples in what's otherwise an incredibly unorthodox relationship.

[explosivecombat]

That might be the case, yes.

Either way, however, you have left your mark, whether you find it obvious or not.

[doitrockapella]

Not that I don't trust your word, but it'd be nice to see it more frequently than I do, rather than resigning myself to being assured that it's there.

[explosivecombat]

...Locke, do you remember that discussion we had about not complaining about the gifts you're given?

[doitrockapella]

I'm not complaining! It's an expression of what I'm thinking, regardless of its actual merit.

[explosivecombat]

...So you're complaining without expecting me to do anything about it.

[doitrockapella]

Are we really going to do this right now?

[explosivecombat]

It certainly looks that way.

[doitrockapella]

It wasn't complaining, it was wishful thinking.

[explosivecombat]

All right, then.

[doitrockapella]

Don't get angry with me.

[explosivecombat]

Do you want me to drop it or not?

[doitrockapella]

You're reading as dismissive and it's...

I don't like it when I've done something to make you talk that way to me. Nothing I've said just now is worth that.

[explosivecombat]

Tell me what you were trying to accomplish.

You say it's just expressing thoughts regardless of merit, but that's never all it is.

[doitrockapella]

No. That's all it was. Sometimes I wish you would express feelings in a way that I'm used to recognizing in other people. It's not a passive-aggressive hint to change or a remark motivated by an ulterior design. The only thing I was out to accomplish was to let go of a moment of idle frustration.

That's all it is.

[explosivecombat]

...Answer something for me, then.

Do you understand the difference in saying that to someone who won't change things for you, and someone who can't?

1/3

[doitrockapella]

Of course I do. I never expec—

[doitrockapella]

[WAIT HOLD THE PHONE SHE MAY OR MAY NOT HAVE JUST PICKED UP WHAT YOU ARE PUTTING DOWN THERE NIETZSCHE.]

[doitrockapella]

You mean you would if you could, but you can't, and that's what makes it unfair. It's not for lack of wanting; it's just an inevitable impossibility.

Something like that?

[explosivecombat]

...Something like that.

[doitrockapella]

I didn't mean it that way. I'm sorry.

[explosivecombat]

...I understand.

It's just something of a difficult topic, as I go.

[doitrockapella]

...Answer something for me, in exchange?