explosivecombat: (You keep to your intentions - good)
Solf J Kimblee ([personal profile] explosivecombat) wrote2012-10-04 12:30 am

018. [Text, and one other thing.]

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Due to various circumstances in my world of origin, for quite a while, time was immeasurable for me. It came to lack meaning. Weeks bled into months, months into years. In some ways, this world seems like that for many of us; there's a lack of structure, and the list of things that one can do with themselves before they settle into some sort of day-to-day routine is incredibly short. These creatures become a part of our daily lives; this world becomes a part of our daily lives. And before we know it, we've spent weeks here. Months. Years.

That blank spot in my life lasted for seven years, I believe. Yet with nothing else to focus on, I discovered more about myself in those seven years than I did over the course of most of the rest of my life. Spending that long in the dark - whether it's physical or otherwise - tends to teach one a lot, I believe, even if it's just where your limits lie.

You'll have to forgive me for the needless introspection; if you're humoring me by continuing to read, either you have more patience than most at half-midnight, or this is one of those messages on the feed that greets you first thing in the morning. But apparently time does have meaning to most people in this place - in which case...

Tell me how long you've been here, if you choose, and what you've come to discover about yourself in that time.

I suppose it's worth saying that personally, I've been here for a year, as of half an hour ago.

For me, it's been another year where time has next to no meaning, despite the fact that I have an easy way to keep track of it; another year with no direction, though I wouldn't say it's been spent in the dark. Whether I like what I've discovered about myself or not within that year has yet to be seen; however, I find myself content with the way things are.

While I know that I have no choice in the matter, I think I could tolerate another year.



[PRIVATE TEXT TO KATO]

I have a favor to ask of you.
enjoymyatelier: i am just done with this shit (ugh whatever)

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[personal profile] enjoymyatelier 2012-10-14 05:48 am (UTC)(link)
[nope.

he will have his moment of likability goddamnit

also of course he's interesting, and he'll pointedly ignore the 'repression' angle...]


Well, I suppose I should be glad about that. Really, though, it should be common sense.
enjoymyatelier: have fun storming the castle, kayneth (a totally honorable mage duel)

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[personal profile] enjoymyatelier 2012-10-14 06:30 pm (UTC)(link)
This would be my first time participating in something of this magnitude, yes. I've dueled other mages before, but that was strictly one-on-one--that, and I have reason to doubt that they were as skilled as the majority of the participants I'll be facing.
enjoymyatelier: it kind of smells (wow that is just really gross)

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[personal profile] enjoymyatelier 2012-10-14 08:09 pm (UTC)(link)
...And what is that supposed to mean, exactly?
enjoymyatelier: zach. they're here. (migrane's a comin.)

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[personal profile] enjoymyatelier 2012-10-15 04:33 am (UTC)(link)
So I see. Granted, we're talking about very different kinds of wars, I'm sure-but I can certainly see how that confusion would arise.

[because, you know, dumb commoners who don't know shit about mages and all.]
enjoymyatelier: it kind of smells (wow that is just really gross)

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[personal profile] enjoymyatelier 2012-10-18 05:29 am (UTC)(link)
Did I not say that they were entirely different? Of course I'm not attempting to compare them. It's impossible to compare a honorable battle between fourteen people with stringent regulations in place to keep the uninvolved out of the way with genocide, for heaven's sake.