It wouldn't be the first time they found out about something horrible that I've done; I betrayed their trust once before - a year or two ago, depending on whether you consider time spent here to count - and although my motives were quite different back then, the fact remains that this would be a second betrayal. I imagine they'll hate themselves for trusting me again; they'll want to hate me but ultimately will be unable to, because that's how they work. I say this not because I'm using it to my advantage - I have yet to do anything of the sort, and I have no intention of starting now - but because it's simply the way things are. Everything is very internalized with them.
Have I anticipated losing them? Of course I have. I would be greatly surprised if I didn't lose them, when all is said and done. But I'm not acting against them in any way, nor do I intend to directly stab them in the back; for the time being, the relationship is pleasing to both of us, and I plan on keeping it that way for as long as I can.
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Have I anticipated losing them? Of course I have. I would be greatly surprised if I didn't lose them, when all is said and done. But I'm not acting against them in any way, nor do I intend to directly stab them in the back; for the time being, the relationship is pleasing to both of us, and I plan on keeping it that way for as long as I can.